I feel sad today. I don't know if it's the anniversary of the ectopic looming ahead, the lull as we wait for the paperwork/government machine to approve us as foster parents, or the flurry of new baby/pregnancy announcements that is making me feel this way.
Usually I would try to "not" feel sad, in an effort to make myself happier, but that just makes me feel worse.
So I am embracing the sadness, not wishing it to go away or hoping it will. I tend to feel panicked when I do that.
Last night we went to another couples' house; we both enjoy their company SO much, and they have a boy and girl very close to our kids' ages. It was SO good.
There are some people I can be around and I don't have to fake it or pretend to be happy.
Because in their presence, I just can "be" and don't have to pretend.
And you know what? That makes me happy.