Just bruised and battered this morning.
Sometimes I feel like things are going in slow motion and I should be able to catch up with the outside world but I can't...something is keeping me from doing it.
I want the sadness to stop. I want to be happy when I hear someone else is having a baby. I don't want to feel fear every time I think about trying again. I don't want to think about the anxiety that is sure to follow a positive pregnancy test.
And can I do 37 weeks of hell again?
I am broken, completely.
Two empty Hershey bars wrappers and an empty cookie package proves it.
9 comments:
Hugs, Rach. I know. We'll love you through whatever happen next for you all.
Sarah
I'm sorry this sadness is hanging over you. The clouds will clear. We're here in the meantime.
You will feel better again eventually....pain is hard to deal with physical or mental and I think you are dealing with it very well.
I love you Rachel. You are not broken, you are just staring the truth in the face. you WILL feel better. Don't rush it. and yes, if you do decide to try again, you will survive 37 weeks of anxiety, cause I will be here holding your crazy hand.
Here for you anytime!
I feel ya sister. (((HUGS)))
If ever you need an ear to listen, I'm here for you.
sending ((((((hugs))))))
Ya, it will get better in time, but it can take a long time. You are hanging in there very well. Just take it slow & know we are all thinking about you.
Psalm 102 helps me during tough times.
Post a Comment